Blog World - Day Ten

If this is MY blog, then I'm making it a confessional today.......because you see - I had a bit of a slip. This is how my mind works..........I woke up at 5:15 am to get ready for work....I drag myself into the kitchen and while on auto-pilot, I fill my coffee pot chamber with water, I walk into the pantry to get the coffee pods out of the bag, put the coffee pods in the little holder, and make sure they're flat, so it doesn't leak (it's a 1 cup type) and press the button to start heating the water.........bzp..bzp..bzp....REWIND....to getting the coffee pods from the pantry....and I realize my eye is wandering down to the canned fruit section...and I see the Mandarin Oranges and think - I should have those on a salad.........it's just a small lapse from the SB diet....fruit.........but I could make an interesting oriental chicken salad for dinner tonight! Yeah! So I go back to brewing the coffee and get through the morning routine and drive off to work.....and on the way, I'm thinking....pea pods, cabbage, water chestnuts, scallions......lots of ginger and...............and I'm thinking of the ingredients and I'm thinking...I'll have to stop at the store on the way home - I don't have any scallions.......And then there's the work day.......the usual.........ball-busting....hard.........and - WHAT?........no time for lunch. I got carried away interviewing a complicated client and it took too long and I just didn't even feel like eating at that time, so I just drank a lot of water and dreamed about an extra pound or 2 loss .......WRONG. I must not skip meals, I must not skip meals, I must not skip meals - I should be writing that a hundred times for punishment for what happened next. When I finally left the office, at the end of the day - and got into the mo-beel, I revisited my dream of Chinese Chicken Salad and drove right to my neighborhood market to get the missing ingredients to add to my can of Mandarin Oranges. I was good........I was single-minded..........until I got just happened to take a short-cut to the vegetable isle by way of the DONUT isle. Then my mind took over and I kept thinking how soft and sweet and melt in your mouth good those damn things would taste.......and don't I deserve one or two?.......all this dieting must be for some reason - like being able to eat a DONUT once in a while...........and they're so CHEAP! $2.99 for SIX! And before I could think any more - they were in my polyester-bring-your-own-shopping bag-with you -and on the moving check-out counter and then - going home with me. When I entered the garage, I realized Richard was out and a sigh of relief spread over me..............no need

for a guilty conscience.......no one is watching! And with that I filled a glass of skim milk and sat down to watch my Soap with my 1000 calorie full fat, full white sugar donut......I was feeling pretty good and then I heard the garage door motor running and knew Richard was arriving and on his way in.........what will he say.....what will he think.......after all, I've been

the driving force - the diet nazi- if you will -for over 10 days - and now....well what kind of role model is this? And the guilt started to creep in and with a small whimper I said, "I did something terrible today." and I waited for Richard's response......................................."Did you get a speeding ticket?".........(Speeding Ticket???? that's REALLY BAD - AND EXPENSIVE)........."Why- Did you?"-I ask him in response.........."No" he says......but I'm already feeling better, because a frickin' donut isn't anywhere near the side of the scale that a speeding ticket is on, and so I breath a sigh of relief and say........"No...I bought donuts...." "Oh....can I have one?"

You see, this is the good thing about being married to your soul-mate.........they always "get it". And so I know, at least he understands me....and if anyone out there ever finds this blog and reads it, I hope they will "get me" and understand...that I'm just a person trying to live in the 21st century.